Is this what's love all about?

Without a question. I love my children more than anyone i've ever loved. Though, I know the love between mother and child is a different kind of love, it questions the love you have for others. The love I have for my daughter and son is so pure. So real. Unbelievably strong and powerfully unbreakable. They fill in the spots that were left unknown and empty. Broken, they filled the cracks. My soul and heart were shaken and crumbled before. They are the reason i'm so happy and filled with true love.
Coming out of an abusive physically and emotionally relationship 5 years ago I finally got the courage up in me to fight back and go back to where I longed to be. Home. Even though it was for the best I felt alone. Empty. Numb. Scared. Permanently damaged. Sheltered from my family for a year, I was finally back to my comfort zone. People that could heal a broken heart. Christmas time came around. Family kept me entertained and my mind off the memories of what was the past then. I still wore the bruises. They were fading from my body and finally from my mind. I knew it wouldn't fade from my trust issues that developed over time and wall I built up. My sisters husband....boyfriend at the time wanted to "hook" me up with a guy he worked with. I knew I wasn't ready for a new relationship. I guess it didn't hurt to try, I thought. It was Christmas night and there I was getting ready for a blind date. I didn't want to go alone so my oldest sister whom was getting me "dolled" up that night went with me just in case this guy was a crazy killer or whatever. You never know now a days. My self esteem was at it's lowest. Because, let's face it, i'm not the prettiest thing out there. Then, there he stood. Black leather jacket. Sweater, blue jeans and freaking timberland look a like boots. No glasses. Red gelled hair. Such a fascinating, funny yet mysterious way about him. The first impression of him made me want to find out more about this guy. Frightened by the impression I made I came off very shy towards him.... The night ended. Im old fashion so this guy didn't get a kiss on the first date or the second ..... He got his first kiss 12:05 a.m new years! This guy, Trent, swooped me off my feet! He was sweet, caring, thoughtful and loving. He had a son. That was the best thing about trent. This little soon to be three year old stole my heart. (caleb is always known to me as my first little.heart) This child became apart of my life and relationship with trent. 99% of all the.dates I had with trent, caleb was right there with us when he was here. Trent and I were all about fun. I was working at a store/restaurant where the beer was always i've cold and the food was good. Late night bands dancing and cutting up with the costumers. The place was going to soon shut down so I moved on to my dream job.... A day care teacher. Shortly and excitingly after I got pregnant with Aubrey. I stopped working. Focused on my pregnancy. The fun stopped. I became a mother as soon as I found out I was pregnant. As i'm sure many women do. I gave birth to a miracle a tiny 4lb 5oz. Sweet baby girl. The moment I held her she looked at me and I looked at her like she knew exactly who I was. Those big blue eyes and red hair. Her tiny fingers wrapped around my finger and at that moment it felt like the world stopped and even though the room was filled with family and.doctors, it was like it was just us. Looking at each other, not a sound was heard. my eyes studied and embraced her beauty. like.our.hearts became one, though we were two different bodies. My life became all about her. Id never leave her side. In the mist of all this it put a strain on my relationship. I wasn't focused on him anymore. We clashed heads a lot. Drama from his other baby mama began. Rumors, emails things i'm not proud of him saying or doing. We started to resint each other. I did so much he didn't like and he did so much I didn't like. It was starting to be too much to handle. Almost a year later I got pregnant with Graham. That put more strain on our relationship. I began to not care if he went wherever.... We use to not go any where without each other. I gave birth to Graham and things started to get better between us. Many more ups and downs came andwent. Despite all we have been through I know there's love between us. So is this what loves all about? climbing tall challenging mountains of relationship struggles just to come out even stronger together at the end? Yes, I do think so. We all aren't perfect. We are human. Love. Love shines through all the hard times. It's a everyday challenge that we have to work through everyday. But we keep fighting and pushing to get to where we want to be in a relationship. Im still learning how to love fully with him. The past left walls that were hard to break down. It's different from the love I have for my kids because no matter what they do that day my love for them is never questioned or lacked. I want that love for trent or close to it. We are getting there. Those walls that were built up are now after four years slowly but surely coming down. It goes to show how much extra work you have to put in a new relationship after having a bad one.....