Skip the drama stay with mama. Mama knows best!
For those of you who don't know where that saying came from watch the movie。Tangled.
My 2 year old daughter loves that movie. When I say loves that means we are.watching it all day every day. She refuses to watch anything else! She loves horses so.. She makes me skip to the horse scenes. Such a cute movie!
This title/saying has alot to do with this blog tonight.....
Im a very special kind of mom. I say this because I rarely see moms like me. ESP. At my age. If you aren't like me that's ok. Im not downing. everyone parents different.
So let's skip to ths point here...... I've never really left my kids.... Ever! I can't! I have such separation anxiety without them in,my sight. I know... You are probably thinking gez...she's crazy. That's fine. I get that alot.
It all started when I had Aubrey. Actually when I got pregnant with her .I knew exactly what kind of mother I was going to be. Some folks call it "mama bear syndrome" I protected my tummy like it was treasure. of course she was treasure. In my eyes anyways. I was told I couldn't get pregnant and if I did it probably wouldn't go full term. In other words miscarry. I won't get all medical with you. you get the point. So when I actually found out I was pregnant I was nervous but so happy! I thought it would never happen. So when you hear you wouldn't be able to have this happen and it crushed your soul and heart you kind of hate yourself for it. When you actually get pregnant after hearing and feeling like that it's like your world flips and you want to protect the child God Blessed you with. ESP. Praying hard for a few years.
Aubrey came unexpected. 34 weeks premature. I was lucky. She stayed in nicu for about two weeks. And when you have a 4 lb baby it's like "what do you do? Will I break her?" Ahhh.. It's so much you worry about with a premmie.
So skipping on to what I promised her. While she was in nicu I spent every second in there. Thank goodness the hospital had rooms for the parents that breastfeed the premmies. BC I wasn't going home without my baby! I couldn't leave her. I promised her that id never leave her side for her whole life. I haven't. She's two years old now and I refuse to leave her.
She had many medical problems. As far as stomach problems . ( she's lactosed) acid reflux (she's still on meds for that), stopping breathing while sleeping (which we will be going for a sleep test next month). She even stopped breathing in my arms when she was just a few months old. Yes, it was so scary. I have nightmares of that night very often.
So, you see I can't leave her alone. In my mind if something were to happen to her and I wasn't there I would lose my mind. See, mama knows best ;) that's exactly how I feel. Im sure others could know what to do in a situation but what kind of mom would I feel like not knowing what was going on? If something did....
My daughter became my world. I.put everything to the side and just gave her all my time. I never go out. I never even bathe alone anymore. But this is what I wanted. I put my relationship with my kids father to the side too. That's caused some problems. Even when I feel like our kids needs us more than we need each other but shoot. Talking about that is a new long blog in itself.
So shortly after I had my son graham. Aka mr. Ham. We call him that because he's a big boy! 8 months old and he weighs 25lbs. Wearing 12/18 month clothes. Yea. He's a chuck! I never left him either. For one I couldn't imagine leaving him just.like I couldn't imagine leaving aubrey. For two I exclusively breast feed him. That's right! No bottles no paci no baby food... Nothing but mamas good ol" boob milk. Simply the best he can get. But I promised him the same as I did aubrey. He's a mamas boy! Of course I can't leave my main man!
